Keeping it real one more time.............

When I first moved to America nine years ago I had a blog. It was kind of my connection to the outside world and I made some friends from it too. Then facebook came along and I got bored with blogging. It was much easier to have contact on facebook. But I think facebook has taken away so much from people and that we fail to see that. We or at least I am to fearful to put too much about my family on there and you can't talk about the things you really want to talk about without offending people or come off as if you are bragging. People don't really care about what they are reading (ok maybe a handful of people but not the people you knew when you were 10)and in all honesty what you are reading is a mere moment of time in that persons life. So Sally had a starbucks today... well shit her life must be perfect... little does anyone no that the rest of Sally's day was crap!! We read what we want to read and we make mental images in our heads of their lives and our lives. Don't get me wrong I love technology and I liked be connected like that but it was taking away something from my life. It was taking away human contact. This is the way the world is turning now though and well I want off the ride for awhile. I can't say forever... I have a son going to college in a year and I want to be in contact with him however possibly and if he is on facebook then that's were I will be. By the way he totally left facebook a few weeks ago because he felt that it was distracting him from his studies. Maybe some adults need to leave facebook and realize that it is distracting them from their own lives.

So I am going to do some more reading and when I am on the computer I am going to learn something new each day instead of trolling facebook and reading about other peoples so called lives.

Carry on!!!

Happiness

Cheer

I didn't realize that half my shit was attached to facebook.. words with friends, pinterest and I am sure there is more. I can't believe how integrated it is into everything.I have six games going on words, five are with a lady that added a game five times. I am sure she doesn't know what the hell she is doing.

So today I still feel anxious in the pit of my stomach. I really don't know why though. I hate feeling like this. I think after the summer break I am going to have to find some sort of little job. Staying at home all day isn't good for me. I don't want to spend it cleaning the house all the time. There is only so much cleaning you can do right?

I have stuff to look forward to like going to England but I am not excited about it really. I mean I want to go but you would think I would be well cheery about it. I need to cheer up............................

True

Fakebook

So I closed fakebook today. I have wanted to for awhile but haven't done it. I decided I need a break from it. Really why are we all on there anyway? I am tired of people thinking they know my business when they don't really have a friggin clue. It isn't an excuse not to call people up or to want to hang out with them. I think people go on FB and see that you are alive and don't need to contact you. I need human contact. I don't need it on a daily basis but occasionally would be nice. I don't think I am addicted to FB and I may have been in the beginning when it first came out but honestly now I am just irritated by it. So far two people have asked me where I have gone... now that's funny!!!

Here

Still here somewhere. I think I have some depression going on and I am trying to deal with that. I have trying a new hormone replacement therapy. I was using the cream but it wasn't working very well for me so now I have these nasty little lozenges that go in your mouth between your gum and your cheek. I think I am getting the hang of not getting on my tongue. It tastes like bile... not nice at all. Seriously it sucks getting old. I just want to feel like I did five years ago. I am not talking twenty years ago... Carry on!!